I must confess….
Today is Tuesday and I’m back at work. On Friday morning, I received a phone call at 7:o0am from a family member; I couldn’t believe what I was hearing…..”Chris is dead, Chris died last night”…..”WHAT”….”WHAT”….that’s all I could keep saying….Chris was my 32 y.o. cousin, we are a tight family and I knew of his struggles with substance abuse, but I never in a million years expected to get that call……he died from a drug overdose (accidental) of heroin. A girl he knew turned him onto it a little less than a year ago….so since Friday, I have struggled tremendously with my emotions and with death and funerals (Italian Catholic at that) comes much food….I let myself go, I ate whatever and however much I wanted and didn’t stop to even think about what I was doing until last night, as I was driving home to my house, feeling so bloated and totally disgusted with myself….I’m on a team, and not only have a I let myself down, I may have let my team down, I have a few days to get back on track and try to make my team proud before weigh in….but it’s hard emotionally to get motivated right now, I’m both physically and emotionally exhausted and I just want to keep turning to food for my comfort, but that’s not healthy, and I know it…..so I’m at least blogging about it now, to get it out of my head and heart and to make it public to some degree so I stay true to myself and find my way again…..thank you for listening, have a great rest of the week…and…..GO GRIZZLIES!!! 
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I am so sorry for your loss. I am sure everyone in here will agree that when we have such tremendous stress we always go back to our “”friend” food to comfort us. Allow yourself to work through this you will get back on track little by little as you begin to try to get your life in order after such a loss
Sorry to hear of your family’s loss.
Being aware of the eating for comfort is so important.
Good for you for coming here and blogging.
Best of luck to you
Lori
Sorry about your loss. When you feel the need to eat emotionally try going for a walk or something to get your mind back where you need it.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your cousin. Drugs are so evil. Its very therapeutic to write your feelings out. Hopefully by doing that and receiving lots of support from BuddySlim, you will be back on track in no time!!! I KNOW YOU WILL!!! And your team will understand I’m sure. Take care of yourself.
I am one of your grizzlie teammates and you did not let us down. We understand your great loss and very sorry for that. We all have been there and understand how hard it is not to turn to food in time of stress or sorrow. It’s not something we can just stop doing over night it takes time so we all will have relapses. I am just glad your back and blogging and talking to us about it so hopefully we can help a little bit. Today is a new day so stop beating yourself up for what you ate yesterday and start back today. Your teammates are proud of you no matter what…were Grizzlies!!!!
I am so sorry about your loss. It is never easy to lose a family member we were close to. Most of us on here would do the same thing as you did. It is hard not to turn to food when we are said. But you know that you were emotionaly eating and I have a feeling because you know that you will find a different outlet for your grief. I was just 25 when I lost my dad. I gained a lot of weight after his dealth. I know know I was using food to comfort me.
